I must admit that even though I grew up Catholic, went to a Jesuit college, and usually go to church every week and play with the choir, getting to church the past few months have been rather challenging with the numerous weekends away for weddings and my husband's new work schedule that usually has him working both Saturday and Sunday.
Yesterday was our first free Saturday in quite some time and we decided that no matter what, we were going to make time to go to church together and I am so very glad that we did. Yesterday's sermon was exactly what we needed. With the bar exam looming ahead, and the house on the market with no real clue as to what we are doing next, life is definitely a challenge. Everything is a big if ... if we sell the house then .... assuming he passes the bar then ... but nothing is certain, which is definitely hard for me. I live today planning for the next few months. I like to have control of my life and make my own decisions and rarely leave it up to fate to decide.
Fr. Britto yesterday hit right to this very same point. He is spending his last weekend with us at our church and is moving on to a new parish next week. He is scared, the parishioners at both his old and new parish are scared. What happens next? Will we be OK? What if this new guy changes everything?
The take home lesson of the day was that no matter what boat you are in, God is with you. It may not seem like he's there and he's letting your boat stray off course, but he is always with you and guiding you toward your destination. It might be scary, and your course may be unknown, but if you just let go and let God navigate you'll get to your destination safely.
So that's my goal for this week. Just to let go. Stop worrying about the bar exam (that I'm not even taking), stop worrying about selling the house, or moving or any of the other things that I can't control until God is ready to give it to me. However this turns out, it will be fine. My boat is just taking a small detour so I can see the sights.
What are you going to let go of this week?
Until the next time ...
The girl behind the lama